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|Posted by Lilgreen13 on November 17, 2011 at 7:30 PM||comments (3)|
Yes, I am new yet I could not help but post a blog so soon. I feel as though I am literally begging for peace. As a child I was brainwashed and abused, though I will not go into it because frankly I do not wish to bore you with a sob story. Anyway, I feel that my short yet fiery temper is a biproduct of this. I used to be able to feel people's emotions with ease, and used it to help my friends. I could do other things too but have since lost the ability to do the aforementioned things.
I grew angry at God, any god, any supernatural existence I blamed. I also became angry at myself and I feel like I have been a little ball of anger ever since (I say little because I am short =P). I am still kind, but am bitter toward myself deep down. I have tried meditation but for some reason I randomly feel anger again. It is the same with astral projection. I become so close, but I either get bombarded with feeling of fear or anger that come seemingly from nowhere. Seriously, I meditate then try to astraly project. I feel calm, it's quiet, then BAM! Anger just rushes in. I don't understand it and I feel like I'm being mocked for even trying to project or mediate. I gave up for a short time but am back again.
I will admit I am less than optimistic this time, since I have failed so many times before, but I am too stubborn to give up for good. I ask for your prayers and guidance. Thank you for taking the time to read this. Hope it was worth it.
|Posted by heartofalion on November 15, 2011 at 11:10 PM||comments (6)|
somebody help me my name is alex im 17 and honestly scared of the dark .. i close my eyes and cover my ears when ever i hear something or see something. i feel like im always being watched and i cant sleep without turning on my tv i really want to astral project but im scared of the dark... even in daylight i have the same feeling alone in my house... theres a certain spot in the corner of my room that i can sense something there just staring at me... i need help this has to stop.:roll:
|Posted by 3nlight3n_M3 on November 7, 2011 at 11:40 PM||comments (9)|
Ok this gone be a long ride so please buckle up:
I want to start off by saying, as a child my family brought me up religious. Chritianity to be exact, so i have alot of things i need you guess to break down and desypher. From my religious upbringing i was taught that after death you are judged and your home is choosen either heaven or hell. Now with this being instilled in my life as a child i cant help but orignate to my roots in certain situations.
I've done multiple types of research in both positive and negative aspects of awakening. Upon my research of the positive views i've learned that this is of nothing new, and that this is our orginal roots as race. Also i came to learn that we are multidementional beings and that nothing is impossible. On the negative side of things i learned that awakening makes it easy for possessin to occur. And that when one astral projects the entities one interacts with are actually demons trying to lure the race of man away from the truth which is Jesus Christ the only way to salvation.
So now you see my confusion. To be 100% honest im just plain out lost, dased, and confused. It's like; im so eager to pursue my awakening, but in the back of my mind there's a road block. How can i truly know the truth. My beliefs were instilled since the very beging of my life so its hard for me to accept another as truth. But yet again i am so intregied. But i cant help but think of the "what if theory" what if the bible is 100% percent right and that Jesus is the key and without him where doomed to hell. WHAT IF I ASK YOU??? what if religion really is man made and that we actually are consiousness in this never ending universe?
Please help me with your opionions on the matter at hand because i need some closure here. This has truly been holding me back from furthering my practice. Confession: i felt sleep paralysis on 2 seperate occasions, knowing about the claims of "old hag syndrome" once this sensation came over me an i become imobilized i fight hard to beak free, fearing what may come or what i may expieriance. Please please please give me feed back, and ABB im looking forward to your comment cause i just know this is one you cant resist but comment on lol. MUCH LUV EVERYBODY
|Posted by Endless Mystic on November 3, 2011 at 6:40 PM||comments (5)|
Ok, I am a male and am 18, and I've been thinking about astral sex. Like, its so itneresting. Can you get astral pregnancy? It would be such an experiance. What do you guys think? And really how does this wide-r view on sex affect the people who have a religionous people who've been duped in to thinking sex should be between married couple. A
|Posted by Endless Mystic on October 25, 2011 at 5:50 PM||comments (2)|
Thanks to all of the family members here. Love the positive feedback and advice. I was thinking about astral projection. I guess the reason why I don't want to do it is cause I am a afraid of being manipulated in the astral relams. I am also afraid of gaining powers for I feel as though I'll misuse the gifts given to me. I just don't trust my self. I mean,.. I don't know. I don't want to indentify with my fears yet i want to admit its there... got to go, I'll see you guys later. may peace reside in your hearts.
May the moon shine blue
and withhold all thats ture
may the sun shine bright
as I go deeper in this flight
of self knowledge and of truth
what ever it may be
For I want to open my eye (s) to see.
resides within me is a light so pure
a light so energetic.
whose power I know not
beautiful not hot.
relgification of the inner spirt
is but an attempt to control the fear of it
its power only i can start or stop it.
let go of control
see there is not to hold.
for all becomes nothing
and arises from nothing
only to return to its proper form.
spirtually I'm in the eye of the storm
But I am glad this time i wont be "reborn"
for it is growth of soul!
|Posted by Endless Mystic on October 22, 2011 at 3:45 PM||comments (6)|
To be honest and truthfull, this is probubly the only fourm I could turn to. As a child I have been gulible and manpulated and I forgave that person. But I still hold so much anger and hatered and puure neagative vides against me. I mean, I went to the thought of me being a pedofile towards. Beacuse of my sexual activity as a child. It sads me that no one is there to tell me it isn't my fault. The pain I was escapeing came from not having a certain someone in my life. I was trying to avoid the feeling of being abandoned even though I wasn't. Even thought that person provided for me and went physically away from I guess I still was afatid that he might never come back. And so to avoid that feeling of abandonment I got all religious, And the my reliigiuos "teacher: manpulated me 7 or 8 year ( i think he was like 15?) well, I got into some sexual activity at seven. I decided a year a go to forgive the me, the me that I was, flawed and all. The Human. And its so hard. I feel as though I hit rock bottom. Self forgiveness and love, is my challange and goal, yet I feel like not continueing. I have so much pent up hate and emotions, I just don't know what to do. So I wrote this. In order for others like me or close to like me can see that I am moving forword and I am admitthing that self forgiveness is do able. What ever pain you guys are in I want you to know I support you. I love you. I am glad you exist. I am so against my self, yet I know there is light and love in me. I will continue in this quest for ultimate self knowledge and awareness. Peace guys. Love with heart Endless Mystic
|Posted by 3nlight3n_M3 on September 25, 2011 at 5:40 AM||comments (3)|
First off let me just say HEY FAM!!!!!!!!!! I've missed you all. Now i know ya'll been wondering where i been, and let me tell you i've been on a mission. A mission to awakening, this whole time i;ve been trying to jump the gun an go staright astral. But know i know that i am far from ready from raching that state. I now know that one has to master thy self first, and be able to control one's inner energy. Before attempting to movie futher in the demintions of man. I've learned that the more you know and the more you do you will be held resposible for. EX: if i was to jump first into astral without any control of my abilities and a certain situation was to happen, experianced or not i would still be responsible for my actions. But if i master myself first and truly awaken then when in certain sitiuation happen ill already know how to go about handling it.
Im very excited about my new journey and hope things moves simmingly. I really want to achieve this. But a little disturbing news. I have a person who's lending me advice in my process of awakening and i explained to her that i have trouble meditating because it's always interupted with negative thoughts and fear and that it would break my concentration. So she told me that this was very dangerous and that i needed to find out why is it that these thoughts are coming to me. She explained that there was an entity that didn't want me to explore my deminsions and that it was blocking me and putting up barriers. So i guess that means i have to confront this issue. In a way im nervious but then again im kinda anxious lol. I can use all advice you guys so please feel free to post your ccomments, thanks for listening and once again I missed you guys. much love everyone wish me luck.
|Posted by 3nlight3n_M3 on August 21, 2011 at 3:00 AM||comments (16)|
about 2 years ago i meet this beautiful girl an instantly fell for her, but at the time i was young an wild an didn't persue her because i had easier girls in my face....shallow i know but ive matured a long way since then. any way 2 days ago i ran into her again an we both were super happy to see each other. needless to say we've been texting an talking every since. im so happy inside, lately i've really been kinda down because i couldnt find love, but now its finally here an i cant contain myself. i just had to tell someone how happy i am so i started this blog. i have every intention on making this relationship my last one....yes i think she's the one i wanna marry. but only time will tell. wish me luck family in my new relationship, cause she really means alot to me. an like beyonce says if you like it then put a ring on it....i just may