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Psycho Meds

Posted by solodolobolo on April 23, 2013 at 6:05 PM

I've been battling depression and general anxiety since I can remember. Today I started my first course of antidepressant medication (I call them psycho meds cos I think it's funny). The decision to do so was a hard one. Throughout my counselling I was adamant that I was going to get through this without medication, that the root of my issues was spiritual imbalance, that the power was all within me. However, I just want to SEE if my quality of my inner world could do with a chemical pick-me-up. I certainly don't want to feel like I've failed myself, but of course I'm a little disappointed that I didn't get there without. Gosh dang this human experience is a tricky one. Here's to the upward spiral.

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Reply solodolobolo
8:42 PM on June 6, 2013 
KarenW says...
Just take one day at a time...


i'm always getting better at taking my experience into my own hands. thanks for your comment
Reply KarenW
12:15 PM on June 6, 2013 
solodolobolo says...
thanks for your input. can certainly say that the medication has helped me. the uptake period is essentially over, so my brain is now regulating more normative levels of seratonin. the idea is to be on the medication for 18 months. this seemed like a long time to me as i didn't want to be on them for much longer than six months, but the point is that the receptors in my brain need to be reset and get used to producing more healthy levels of joy chemicals. this also decreases the risk of a rebound when i come off them so there's less chance i will need to go back on.

basically the meds have given me the facility to view my worries from a better mood. it's made all the difference really. just feeling better first has allowed me to move on from a lot of things. there's still a fair bit to go, but i'm hoping for the best.

Just take one day at a time. Trust yourself and your non-physical help to get you to where you are headed. Part of being here is to learn and grow with in the dynamics of the fish bowel. Also, stop and think. Having this particular experience may be helpful to a protégé later in life-it is a unique experience that only u can take. Walking in a certain pair of shoes for a time period can help you grow and delve into identifing with others. Doesn't mean you don't get to trade up or try on a new pair. It is all about the experience in part. AS long as you learn from it.
Reply solodolobolo
11:39 PM on May 24, 2013 
KarenW says...
I totally agree with Eerrie....


thanks for your input. can certainly say that the medication has helped me. the uptake period is essentially over, so my brain is now regulating more normative levels of seratonin. the idea is to be on the medication for 18 months. this seemed like a long time to me as i didn't want to be on them for much longer than six months, but the point is that the receptors in my brain need to be reset and get used to producing more healthy levels of joy chemicals. this also decreases the risk of a rebound when i come off them so there's less chance i will need to go back on.

basically the meds have given me the facility to view my worries from a better mood. it's made all the difference really. just feeling better first has allowed me to move on from a lot of things. there's still a fair bit to go, but i'm hoping for the best.
Reply KarenW
10:16 PM on May 23, 2013 
eerie777 says...
Whatever you do - don't feel like you let yourself down! That's guilt, pure and simple and guilt and anger are toxins to the Soul! We live in this 3D world and can't eat the food without additives, drink the water because of the toxins or breathe the air for the pollutions! Don't be so hard on yourslef, you tried to do it the right way! Take what you need for we were not meant to walk around this world feeling depressed... be gentle with yourself!

I totally agree with Eerrie. This maybe just a breath compared to the time you have here. Do not waste your time here beating ur self up on this issue. So your not perfect and needed a little help NO BIGGIE. You needed help getting to a point where things could be better. You can always move away from them in the future as you make a move toward a improvement in other aspect of lifestyle and harmony.
Danjigel~ that is a slippery slope. true meds can create a rebound effect of dependency but so can chocolate and sex not going with out those will not kill a person. I personally feel that there is wisdom in a person seeking help in overcoming the momentary obstacle so that they can move past it and move on. No I do not think that manufactured medications are perfect nor are they the ultimate solution. I look at meds in this respect.- ANY medication for a chronic issue. IF you have a insulin dependent diabetic since childhood. You would not suggest they not take their insulin to live would u? So if a pill a mental health pill can keep a person from transitioning too soon to the other side or calm them down enough to fully explore non-medical options in a sound frame of mind and then take the right course of action; then the person has used the wisdom and the events around them just like money to make that moment in life a "little" more comfortable. This does not mean it is permit. I am a firm believer that disease is caused by dis-ease. I am also a type one diabetic. I will resolve my own soul splintering issues that got me here to the point I am at now but technology is not nessacarily evil in its self. It is a manifestation of all parties involved. It in my humble opinion is ok to use what you have until you no longer need training wheels to go for the ride as well.
Throwing the baby and the bath water out together is not a rational step.
Reply lucy
2:26 PM on May 8, 2013 
Chillies and high coco chocolate work for me, coco nuts if you can afford them.Ive tried all the meds,they dont work and generally have nasty side effects,Its usually to do with a lack of serotonin in your brain, there are probably other natural serotonin boosters out there as well.I feel for you I have been in some dread-full states because of depression.
peace and respect.
Reply AstralBooBaby
1:35 PM on May 6, 2013 
Don't feel down on yourself fam... Although you feel that you have not done what you set out to do - you can still continue to try. I know quite a few people who were once using anti-depressants and other synthetic drugs to cope but they forged ahead and broke that chain and are living healthy and fulfilling lives without them. The hardest thing when it comes to fighting depression is the will to fight itself. Fighting to get out of bed; to exercise; eat mostly raw green leafy organic fruits and vegetables; sun-gaze; connect with nature, etc., is very difficult to do but when you push past the resistance no matter what - you will eventually find yourself smooth sailing in victory! Take it from someone whose been there! No, I never took anti-depressants but I know what its like to be so depressed that you just want to die! I pulled myself out of it being one a symbol of the most scorned, hated, oppressed and marginalized expressions one could be in this world! If I could rise above with so much against me, I KNOW that you and anyone else can or WILL do the same!
Reply NarcolepticDream
6:43 PM on April 29, 2013 
Im doing the same thing with myself. Im just trying to see if it can maybe possibly serve me in some way. Although i didnt wanna take in the first place. Im trying to be positive even though I wanna think the worst from it.
But really, I just wanted to see if there was a difference between me with and without the meds. I guess im wiling to give it a try.
Reply solodolobolo
5:16 AM on April 26, 2013 
Danijel says...
My advice to you...


thank you for the reply danijel. trust me, i really didn't want the prescription in the first place, but i just need a little help for the time being. sometimes the anxiety is a chicken/egg situation with wondering what comes first, the racing thoughts or the tense emotions. i know it all has its roots, but i would really like the advantage of a level head to examine it. sometimes i'm just so faded and paranoid! thank you too for your encouragement

ps. i understand the concept of the eternal moment and no past and future, but i'm still heavily programmed. making my progress very slowly, but surely.
Reply Danijel
9:46 PM on April 25, 2013 
My advice to you , definetly , if its is possible , in any way , do not use any "medications" or "anti-depressants" . Anti-depressants are very bad , and they stimulate depressions in long term usage , creating a closed circuit , literally , for some people . Maybe you could try to step , little by little , from them .

The best way to combat depression is so simple . When you get depressed either because of future or because of past ... imagine there are no future and no past , that youre only in that one moment . The depression will become invalid or it will pale slowly . Also , try to look at wide picture , as wide picture as possible . Ask yourself , who you really are , what is your task here , and ask yourself , about eternal life youre living constantly . When you realize there is no reason to be depressed in first place , no matter what happens here , in this dimension , youre realize you actually never had depression , only confusion and doubts . I had same problems , my whole high school , thinking sometimes seriously about suicide even ... but now I realize I just didnt had proper image in my head . You are immortal , you are Creator , you are Listener , Mentor and Speaker , everything at same time . Depression will come and go , and one day it will be completely gone - because you wont need it anymore ( yep , I havent written it wrongly , you stick to it because you need it to learn from it , but one day you wont need it at all ) .

Wish you a WIDE picture ... and no Depressants ;)
Reply solodolobolo
11:25 PM on April 24, 2013 
thank you both for your encouragement. love
Reply eerie777
5:30 PM on April 24, 2013 
Whatever you do - don't feel like you let yourself down! That's guilt, pure and simple and guilt and anger are toxins to the Soul! We live in this 3D world and can't eat the food without additives, drink the water because of the toxins or breathe the air for the pollutions! Don't be so hard on yourslef, you tried to do it the right way! Take what you need for we were not meant to walk around this world feeling depressed... be gentle with yourself!
Reply lisaJ
8:57 AM on April 24, 2013 
I hope the meds will help you too. If anything you can still practice spirituality in tandem, use what ever tools you were working with and see if they will work together? I have not been in that situation, tho I have gone through about a couple of times a dark night of the soul. I felt during those times that I might need to go to the psych ward, but somehow got through. I found reading up on it, and resonating with it seemed to help me forge through.

Indeed life is not easy. I have to wonder if our 3D life can ever be a happy content kind of one? Keep on striving any way, you will get through :)